Don't know where these feelings come from. Sometimes I just want to forget everything and talk like nothing happened. Most of the time I have control over my feelings, or atleast I think. But there are certain times it feels like a rush. All the past memories start flashing like an old movie theater, as if I'm watching a movie. And I laugh at the scenes which are funny and be sad at which are sad. And I forget for a while that these are past things, and I forget about the reason why certain things have become past. But after a while I come back to reality and tell myself, "you fool", with a faint smile.